Be Real: Prayer, Intention, Affirmation

YOU ARE ALREADY PERFECT! This is Divine Mercy. God loves us exactly as we are and for who we are. We are all perfect in our imperfection.

It's all about creating the existence I want, because according to God, anything is possible - I just have to get out of my own way! As do we all! Are you in that place of knowing you were meant for more, feeling depressed, unhappy, wanting something else, but not knowing what it is? -Been there, done that... It has been about a year since I put out my intention and it's been answered in ways I could not have imagined.

A year ago I sat at the kitchen table talking to my husband about wanting more self awareness. Knowing I want to do something or was meant for something more, but not knowing what it is. My family is beautiful, our life is perfect, I have nothing to complain about. But, something was missing. That something was God.

Over this past year, I've learned everything has to do with my existence. What I say, think, do. What I eat, watch on TV, read. All of it affects us in small ways and all these small things add up to big things.

In my search for self awareness, I've discovered I am God. So are you. We all are. We are all a piece of Him. To know myself is to know God. To know that I am enough exactly as I am and that God loves me brings internal peace. And internal peace is true wealth. For in seeking myself, I've found God.

Here's the secret that's been revealed to me this month. This existence is the 'other side'. We are here to learn, play, experience. God is truth. Heaven is home. We are just visiting. I KNOW this now. Why, you ask? Because I see, hear and feel the Angels. I hear the guidance. I understand it and it makes sense. So, for me - I'm getting it right this time around and if that means I feel the fear and do it anyway, so be it! You really don't know until you try. I've gotten out of my own way and allowing God to lead the way.

Praying, affirmations and intention are all thoughts that are one in the same. If we offer up these thoughts from a place of love, then we vibrate love and love is what we receive. If we offer up these thoughts from a place of fear - well you connect the dots. The trick is to offer them up as preferences and just release them. Stop worrying about if it will happen or not. Just know it will. Release expectations of how you think something should be because this indicated ego attachments and creates limitations on God. The intentions are strong preferences.

These are a few of the prayers, affirmations and intentions that I've used. I've got notebooks full of them. When I publish my book, you'll get the rest then! They've all been given to me - from who else - God! And who delivered them to me? The Angels!

God, help me be who you want me to be and do what you want me to do.

I/We are healthy, wealthy, happy, peaceful and wise.

I trust myself and God. I am surrounded by Angels.

I see, hear and feel Divine Guidance and understand it clearly.

The intention today is to have confident detached discernment in all I think, say and do. To remain in Spirit, connected to my soul with a complete connection to God. I am intuitive and have complete confidence in myself and God.

To know God is to know myself. See ye first the kingdom of God and the rest will come.

I refuse to accept this limitation - God is my Source. I release all limiting ego illusions to the Light to be transformed.

I invite the Light and Love of God to fill me.

Now, here's another secret. Allow yourself to be in a receptive state to do these affirmations. For when you do them, you are reprogramming your subconscious. Your subconscious is a super computer which stores all the information of you. If you want to remove blocks, reprogram it. Say it enough times, do it enough times and it will take hold. What is so powerful about this is that it is so simple. It takes 21 days for blood to regenerate in the body. It takes 6 weeks to develop a new habit and it takes 6 months for that habit to become a lifestyle change. Now, that's according to science. I believe it can happen faster than that. I know it can. Because faith can heal anything instantly. This is healing.

Here are some tricks to allowing yourself to be in a receptive a state as possible:
1. eat or drink when affirming (healthy of course!)
2. affirm after or during exercise
3. affirm before bed
4. affirm upon waking
5. affirm after sex (I haven't tried this one, but plan on doing it very soon! Whoo-hoo!)
6. always affirm/pray/intend from a place of gratitude
7. write it down, say it, think it
8. tap (use EFT - see my August post)
9. read affirmations daily
10. cut back and/or eliminate the crap (food, TV, etc... you know what I mean)
11. include your loved one(s) - the power of many increases the vibration (the family that prays together, stays together)

All of these states have us in an 'open' place to receive the good affirmations faster and download them quicker. In the same turn, you can release that which does not serve you in this same state just as fast.

Be Real: Car Camping

We started out to Ohio to visit relatives with the best of intentions, but we got stuck somewhere between here and NOT there. The roads were treacherous. A trip that should have taken 9 hours turned into 18 hrs. We had traveled only half way and the main highway was shut down going both North and South. What ensued was controlled chaos.

We ended up in Berkly, West Virginia. Every and I mean EVERY hotel was booked solid. There were people sleeping on the floors in the hallways. The hotel employee was kind enough to give us directions to a shelter. And to top it off, we found our neighbors who also became part of the insanity! We, like them, thought we had avoided the winter storm. And, although the storm was done, the clean up was not.

As we set off on a wild goose chase to find a shelter, we just saw more of the same... snow completely blocking the roads, cars and tractor trailers abandoned or tipped over. Most roads were nearly impassible. Needless to say, we gave up on the shelter and took our chances sleeping in our car in the Kroger parking lot. We were not alone. The parking lots were full of people, families - all sleeping in cars. Our neighbors did go on searching for the shelter and eventually found one. I'll tell you more about that later.

As all of this was going on, I kept telling the kids to pray. Boy, did we ever pray! My oldest got so worked up with anxiety, he started throwing up out the window. We did not dare stop the car for fear of getting stuck. Poor kid. At least he'll have something to tell a therapist when he gets older...

So, here we are praying and I'm waiting for that miracle. That person to say, "Here you go - there's a room for you." Someone to say, "Come stay at our house"... But, us along with countless others were sleeping in our cars with our kids in a parking lot in the freezing cold. I did fall into some self pity. I have to admit. It was terrible and then as I prayed for God to correct my thinking - a miracle did happen. It was about midnight and I was peeing in the parking lot as there were no bathrooms and it hit me - this is one night out of thousands and I get to sleep in a warm house 99% of the time. We had a full tank of gas, sleeping bags and a cooler full of food. We had and have each other. We have God, the Angels and prayer. We were intact. The car is in good condition. My husband is an excellent driver. In all this treacherous weather, not one thing came to harm us. We were and remain completely safe! The whole thing was a miracle and we lived it!

And here I was feeling sorry for myself because I didn't have a bed. Look at EVERYTHING we did have and all that was missing was a bed. What a ninny! Thank you God for showing me the error in my thinking! We are and were completely protected by the Angels. How many people live this way on a daily basis - sleeping in a car and peeing in a parking lot? We were given a small glimpse of what it feels like to be without the luxuries of life - a bed, a shower, a toilet. These are luxuries!

All this time, my Dad was with us also. I could feel him keeping my husband awake as he drove on endlessly, never eating or tiring. As he guided us where to park our car. Eventually we left the Kroger parking lot and went to a hotel parking lot. We had access to a toilet and parked in a sheltered area by a dumpster and a snow bank. It was much warmer as we were protected from the wind. Did I mention it was 27 degrees Fahrenheit? As I look around at all the minivans full of people, I felt like we were initiated into a new club. The club of testing our resolve, seeing what we are really made of - complete self reliance and love of neighbor.

My Dad was always one to be completely self reliant. This life lesson showed my children how to take care of themselves. How to travel with cash and how cash won't get you what you want. But God give you all you could ever need. We couldn't buy our way into a room even if we tried. But, what we gained was worth more than all the money in the world. The restaurants were closed. Unless you can eat money, cash wouldn't help there either! We thought this was a great opportunity to talk to the kids about how Joseph and Mary must have felt looking for a room as they arrived in Bethlehem. We got a small taste of what that may have felt like.

I was thrilled to be near a toilet as I get up often during the night. When I woke at 4:30am and saw the van next to us dusting off to get ready to leave I got really excited and ran out to ask them what they knew. He said that he had walked to the highway and saw it was open. So we blessed each other and off we went in the wee hours of the morning towards our destinations.

My neighbor called to say they had found a shelter and it was full of people without food or the basic necessities to weather this storm. Most of them had abandoned their cars on the roads in search of shelter. And there I was feeling sorry for myself when we had a cooler of food and sleeping bags. I'm so glad we didn't stay at a shelter. We had so much with us. We didn't need a room. It was Divine order that everything happened as it did. We had exactly what we needed to survive the night and that was enough. It all unfolded perfectly and we have one heck of a story to tell.

When we would go camping in Canada as kids, in the middle of the woods, I remember saying every morning when I woke up "I lived another day!". That's how this felt. We lived another glorious day! How lucky were we?! I am awestruck, once again at the glory, mercy and protection we receive from God. We are so blessed. And, we are tougher than I could have ever imagined!

Wishing you love, health, happiness and prosperity in the New Year!

Eat Real: Run, Run as Fast as You Can...

You can't catch me - I'm the gingerbread man! That's what my 3 year old says as he runs circles around the house. Trust me, no one is trying to catch him. We just wait for him to wear himself out!

When people find out what I do and that I have a family, they are always a little intrigued. One of the first questions I get is, "What do you do about the kids? Do they eat sweets?" The short answer is yes. The long answer is - I've been teaching them how to learn their own bodies and what refined, processed food does to it. They are motivated to do well on tests and recognize if they eat eggs and blueberries in the morning, they do better than if they ate a bowl of "O's".

However, there is that fine line I walk of teaching them and then allowing them to fall and figure it out for themselves. My oldest one has been winning the Butterfinger bar in band for most time practicing. Two weeks now, he's come home with that joyous piece of poison. Don't kid yourself - it is poison. And for two weeks now, he's eaten half and shared the other half with his brothers. Want to know how I balance it ? They get twice as much broccoli as usual at dinner, plus carrots and any other vegetable I can find!

In the meantime, we make our own gingerbread cookies using all organic ingredients. Sometimes, I can entice them to 'trade up'. Here's our recipe. I hope you enjoy it as much as we do!

Gingerbread Cookies:
8 oz softened unsalted butter
3/4 sugar (whole cane sugar)
1 egg
1/2 cup dark molasses (we use black strap)
1/2 tsp. pure vanilla extract
3 1/4 cups spelt flour
1/2 tsp. baking soda
1/4 tsp. salt
1 tsp. ground cinnamon
2 tsp. ground ginger
1/4 tsp. ground cloves

Cream butter and sugar, add eggs, molasses, vanilla and mix. Add baking soda, salt, cinnamon, ginger, cloves and mix again. Add flour and mix some more. Shape dough into a disk and refrigerate for 2 hours. Roll out dough to 1/4 inch think and cut with cookie cutters. Bake at 350 degree Fahrenheit for 8-10 minutes.

Eat Real: Blood Type and Diet

December is already here! What has really struck me is that just five months ago I started teaching health and wellness classes once a month. It is with great satisfaction and humble thanks as I look back on these past five months.

The December class features the blood type diet. This is a wonderful tool to help you understand how unique you really are. Dr. Peter DÁdamo, author of Eat Right For Your Type, shows a chemical reaction between your blood and the foods you eat. The reaction is part of your genetic inheritance. This reaction is caused by a factor called Lectins. Lectins are abundant and diverse proteins found in foods and have agglutinating properties that affect your blood. So when you eat a food containing protein lectins that are incompatible with your blood type antigen, the lectins target an organ or bodily system and begin to agglutinate blood cells in that area.

This diet is based on a process that takes place in our blood called agglutination. Agglutination is “the reaction between antigens and anti bodies in the blood. For instance, agglutation will occur if blood type A is mixed with blood type O. Basically, the blood becomes thick as the antibodies in your body attach to what the body perceives as a foreign invader. This reaction takes place with the immune system. It is designed to keep you safe. The antibodies attach to the foreign substance or antigen. It is critical to match blood types when transfusing blood and doing organ transplants for this very reason. Otherwise, the immune system will reject the blood or the organ.

When your body recognizes an intruder, it produces more antibodies to attack the invader. The antibody then attaches itself to the intruder and a "gluing" effect takes place. In this way the body can better dispose of these foreign invaders. This gluing effect causes what we interpret as inflammation, pain, allergies, etc...

The research is based on the theory that If you eat a food not compatible with your blood type and stomach enzymes, the food is not broken down or digested properly, and the vitamins and minerals are not absorbed into your bloodstream to fuel and nourish your body. The body reacts to the food just as it would any foreign substance. You might experience a stomach ache, gas, bloating, or even worse, vomiting or diarrhea. What happens is that antibodies glue themselves to the foreign invaders (improper food) and agglutination or "gluing" takes place in your blood.

Each class is focuses on an aspect of diet, lifestyle and your body so that participants learn a variety of ways in which to interpret how their unique body works and how their soul communicates through it. There is so much power in learning with a group because we all learn from each other! The first class for 2010 is January 24th in Raleigh. We are discussing Raising Your Vibration through Food. You can learn more about it and register by clicking here.

Looking forward to seeing you there! Until then, enjoy your holiday season. Eat Real... be Real. May the Lord grant you peace, health and happiness! Namaste.

Be Real: How Do You Become?

I've been talking quite a bit lately with my friend and intuitive. You can find out more about her at www.awakeningthedivine.net. What we've been discussing is that we are sharing a journey together - as all of us are... a journey to wholeness. A journey to remembering who we really are - our essence. Why we really are here, our soul's purpose.

She has 5 kids, I have 3. Now, the challenge has been this - how do you juggle life, responsibilities and the whole mom thing, yet walk around everyday carrying this dream of who you actually are? How does the dream come true? Don't get me wrong, the family is a dream, the beautiful life - all of it and I'm grateful for it. However, I know I'm not alone when I say there is this yearning to know, to really KNOW.

So she came up with this idea of giving others 'operating instructions' of how to become. How to become whatever it is that you want! She and I are living the operating instructions and are already becoming. Let me tell you, there is so much freedom in just putting it ALL out there for the world to see and KNOWING that it's all ok. It's more than ok, it's INCREDIBLE. Just be truthful to yourself and the world will respond with love and support.

As soon as you admit what you feel, really feel - you've already taken that first step towards knowing and becoming. It's literally one step at a time, one goal at a time. And always, ALWAYS through God. It's in the complete surrender to Him and His will that we gain everything we've ever wanted in this life. In surrendering to God, we receiving the knowing and All That Is.

My accountant said to me, "Where do you want to be 5 years from now?". Answer that question first and you'll have an idea of what path you want to travel. Be honest with yourself. Dream big. Just put it out there. Now, what is 1 thing you can do today that will move you in that direction? Make a list of what you can do and what you feel you can't. Give the 'can't' list to God. He'll do it for you.

We really are creators of our existence. However, God is running the show. All we have to do is show up. How we choose to show up is another matter. There's this whole 'manifesting' thing. This is what I've figured out - the cleaner and clearer you get about yourself and your limiting ego beliefs, patterns and illusions the faster it goes. As soon as we admit the limitations, we can release them and replace them with the higher thought, the higher vibration. This is where prayer can help. Prayer is another way to set intentions. Then there is meditation - listening to the guidance from the prayer we've just offered up. If we loose sight of where we are going, we just trust we are going. We surrender and trust we are being guided and carried. You all know the 'footsteps in the sand' poem... "There were 2 sets of footprints in the sand and then there was one set. The Lord said, those times you only saw one set of footprints is when I carried you..."

We really are what we think, speak, do and eat. Who we attract and the experiences we attract are in direct response to our vibration. Change your vibration and change your life. It's that simple. That's why the best thing you can do is take care of yourself first. Just like in the airplane, put the oxygen mask on yourself before your kids. It's the same for all of life.

1. eat real food - the kind that grows
2. meditate and/or pray everyday
3. honor your body - take a walk, sleep
4. say something nice to someone - and mean it
5. be honest with yourself
6. trust God

Be true to yourself, be real, just show up - God will do the rest.

Be Real: Making Connections

I've made a few connections lately and it's not just the 'linked in' kind... I've figured out that God lives in me - for real. Finding my truth and what works for me, is what works for God. Placing limits or restrictions on what I ask from God actually limits or restricts me and what I've been taught in my religion is what I've been experiencing outside of my religion.

Are you confused yet? Let me start with the first one - finding my truth and what works for me is what works for God. It's called living in a state of Grace. I ask and I receive from God. We all do. What I've been asking for is confidence, discernment, peace, understanding and to remain in Spirit. In allowing these adjectives into my experience, I've come to see that it's really OK to just be me. To be real. I see the correlations. In order to experience God, I must experience myself and to do that I have to honor who I am and what I know right now but be open to the possibilities that lie before me. By acknowledging who I am and where I am right now, I allow myself to love me just for being me. When I love myself, I love God. By remaining open to what lies before me removes restrictions on what I allow from God. If I don't trust God to deliver, then I don't trust myself and vice-verse. I used to say "I don't know where I'm going, but I'm going where God leads", now I say " I know where I'm going, I'm led by my soul which is God and I remain in Spirit each day and every day. I'm guided by God, the Angels and Saints for the best and highest good. I look forward to how each day unfolds as I experience the Lord". The why, how, who, what and where are revealed to me when requested or as required according to God's will - Thy will be done. It's a constant state of evolution to be as high in vibration as possible. To be as holy as possible.

The second part, of placing restrictions or limits on what I ask from God actually limits Him and me. Asking is best done as thanking. Thank you for this opportunity, thank you for my financial abundance, thank you for our health, thank you for peace... you see where I'm going. Pray from gratitude as if you already have it and you do. In asking we place ourselves in a state of need or attachment, it is best to state the 'now' as you already have it. In doing so along with incorporating gratitude, you actually manifest or allow yourself to experience the greatness of God. It's done without restriction, limits or interference - just open yourself up to what comes. It is always be for the best and highest good and there is always more. Hear this, "There is always more". Limits, lack, restrictions are ego illusions - All things are possible in the eyes of the Lord. Say it again, "All things are possible in the eyes of the Lord."

Here's the last part, about my religion... It's no secret I'm catholic and it's no secret that I had a rudimentary knowledge of my religion. However, I have an intimate knowledge of my faith. I've also allowed beautiful relationships with Spirit filled metaphysical practitioners - energy healers, light workers and intuitives. I've learned so much from all of them. There was a point, though, when I thought I was getting 'off path' so to speak. That is until I went to talk to my priest. Know what he said? He said I was living in a state of Grace. Meditation is part of prayer - it's called listening to God! All the saints heard the Angels - it's called the Communion of Saints. Grace of God is also referred to as channeling or synchronicity among energy workers. It's just different vocabulary!

There's one Saint who's been with me - St. Teresa of Avila. She was a mystic - she saw, heard and felt what I'm seeing, hearing and feeling. She wrote "The "devotion of union" is not only a supernatural but an essentially ecstatic state. Here there is also an absorption of the reason in God, and only the memory and imagination are left to ramble. This state is characterized by a blissful peace, a sweet slumber of at least the higher soul faculties, a conscious rapture in the love of God." It really is ecstasy and rapture - it's like a full body orgasm without the sex - all the time! The more I meditate and pray morning and evening and give myself to God without hesitation, the fuller I am and feel. I see and hear the Angels, the knowing is clear and crisp. They are real! I am so grateful and appreciative of this experience and expect it to continue and improve as God requires. This is the trick - just allow being open to seeing, hearing and feeling without judgment. It is not something to turn on and expect - God's Grace is to be cultivated, appreciated and respected - in doing so it is allowed and when it is allowed that connection is full, wide and powerful.

Just allow and trust God. This is what works for me and it is perfect. What works for you is perfect. And, as is true in anything in life, growth requires change. So, if you want to grow, allowing change is a good place to start. This is the prayer that started my journey: "God, help me be who you want me to be and do what you want me to do." Now, here I am with you in this state of Grace. (Reiki Master class starts for me this weekend - I am bursting at the seems with excitement!)

Eat Real: The Sugar Season

The Sugar Season is upon us... parties, cookie exchanges, treats in the classroom... the indulgence is palpable. We LOVE sugar in all shapes and forms. However, we've come to learn that indulgence in anything leads to imbalance and imbalance leads to illness.

Too much of a good thing is still too much. This year, think about what you really want to indulge in. Is it cookies or fellowship? Can you have one without the other? I think so. It has becomes such an ingrained part of our culture to partake in the sugar indulgence of the season. Talk about peer pressure! It's ok to enjoy company without feeling obliged to eat everything in site.

Another consideration is the quality of the sugar products we eat. Plain, white table sugar is processed and refined to such a point that it contains virtually none of the minerals it had from the original cane. Did you know bleach is also used in the processing? Yup, it is. When the body ingests such highly processed and chemicalized food products, it views them as toxins. Toxins lead to fat. Fat is our body's protective mechanism. The liver processes unknown substances into fat to keep them away from our internal organs to keep us free of disease. What happens though, is that overtime, the liver gets tired and doesn't process it to fat as easily and so some of the toxins slip into the blood stream and get to the organs anyway. That's when we see disease start to manifest.

What are the alternatives you ask? Well, for starters, look at the quality and the quantity of the sugar you are taking in. Natural, organic forms of sugar include honey, maple syrup, molasses, agave nectar and whole cane sugar. Now, consider how much you are taking in. Sugar comes in many processed foods, even cold cuts from the deli.

At this time of the year, many of us end up on a sugar high and then crash when it's all said and done. Then illness can set in. According to Traditional Chinese Medicine, this is the time of the year to withdraw and restore. The animals do it, but we don't. We've been programmed to push ourselves and be part of 'the happiest time of the year'. Every time is the happiest time!

Pace yourself, allow your body to rest, give it the fuel it needs to carry your soul and fulfill your purpose. Love yourself enough to say, "No thank you" to the cakes, cookies and more... Love your host and hostess enough to bring everyone together to share joy and happiness. Take a bath, watch some football, relax and enjoy the family. There's always more, there's enough to go around. This is an abundant Universe created by God. Lack is an illusion. There is only abundance - ha, there can even be abundance of lack!

Eat Real: Thanksgiving - Givingthanks...

Happy Thanksgiving everyone! We here in the Eat Real household look forward to a quiet day with each other. It will include cinnamon buns, turkey breast, stuffing, potatoes, corn and football. The typical high carbohydrate Thanksgiving most Americans eat.

In order to control the damage we bought a 2lb turkey breast, 1 bag of organic corn, made cinnamon buns with organic sugar and spelt flour, organic stuffing, home made pumpkin pie and the football is on cable. All told, the day's dinner cost about $25.00 for 5 people.

Here's our pumpkin pie recipe:

Crust:
1 cup spelt flour
1/2 teaspoon salt
1/3 cold cut butter
1 tablespoon whole milk
2 tablespoons water

Mix dry ingredients and cut in butter with pastry cutter or fork. Mix until crumbly. Add water and milk. Mix and then knead dough on smooth surface adding flour to prevent sticking. Roll out. Makes enough for one 8" pie.

Filling:
1 (15oz) can organic pumpkin
1 cup heavy cream
1/2 cup whole milk
2 large eggs
1/2 cup organic cane sugar
1/4 tsp. salt
1/2 tsp. ground ginger
1/2 tsp. nutmeg
1/2 tsp. powdered cloves
1 tsp. cinnamon

Mix all together and pour into crust. Bake 45-50 minutes at 375F. It's done when the middle is set. You can check with a knife.

We are managing this year's feast from a perspective of quality and quantity. We upped the quality and downsized the quantity. In general, as the human body eats higher quality foods, it is naturally less hungry because it is receiving and absorbing all the nutrients necessary for daily function. We are able to enjoy the festivities of the season without going overboard. Not to mention - minimal leftovers!

What would Thanksgiving be without practicing gratitude?! Yes, we are thankful for so much on this day - but what if we could be thankful for so much everyday?! It's been scientifically proven that practicing gratitude changes brain function. It raises your endorphin levels. Synapses change how they communicate between cells. Before you know it, you're feeling good ALL the time and your experience of life changes. It can be seen through eyes of love and optimism instead of fear and lack. When your inside changes, your outside changes and it is reflected back to you in the people, opportunities, and experiences around you.

- Choose quality
- Manage quantity
- Chew your food
- Eat slowly
- Be thankful

Do what you can, when you can, with what you've got.

I am thankful for everyone and everything God has blessed me with. I am thankful for you. (I am thankful for the nap I will take when the dishes are done!)

We are wishing you joy and peace on this day and every day.

Be Real: My Dad

Five years ago today my dad died. He was a Canadian lumberjack in Connecticut. He fell about 70 feet and broke his neck. That was that...

I grew up, my whole life, with him having accidents. He'd break his nose and set it in the tree he was in and keep working... a tree would fall on him and he's push it off and keep working... a branch would split his head open and he'd walk into the doctor's office unannounced and they'd sew him up and he'd go back to work... My life was spent seeing him bloody, broken, full of wood chips, hydraulic oil and full of life. He was NEVER afraid to do anything. Not that he had anything to prove, he just did what he wanted, when he wanted. Whenever, I get nervous or worried about something I think of him - what have I got to loose?

We have but one life this time around, we might as well do what we love and make the most of it!

He was never in a rush. He ALWAYS had plenty of time for anyone and everything. He'd try things like beekeeping without any experience and the results were comedic. One time he brought a hive of bees home from a tree he cut thinking he was going to start his own little hobby. Well, the bee's started swarming around the neighborhood! I was newly married at the time and remember calling my mom to check on things. She said "I'm drinking - your father's bee's are swarming, come on over!". Yup, when I get there, he has window screens duct taped around his head, duct taped gloves over his hands and he's holding a bottle of dish soap in one hand and a hose in the other. There he goes - running around the neighborhood hosing down the bees!

He was covered in stings! But he took it as a good sign that he wouldn't have arthritis. So he looked on bee stings with great appreciation. CRAZY! Man he lived everyday like it would be his last! He loved us more than his own life. He lived his truth no matter what anyone else thought.

One time, he left the house in the middle of a hurricane because an elderly lady called about a tree in her yard and how she was afraid it would fall on her house. It was a HURRICANE! He left without any worry or regard to his own safety to bring the tree down and calm an elderly woman. What?! I hear you say. Yes, that was my dad.

He died the day before Thanksgiving, Nov. 24th. That was five years ago. I was in Ohio visiting my in-laws when we got the call. All I could do was hold my head in one hand and the phone in the other while the world stopped and I tried to breathe. My father-in-law found a flight and managed to get me to Connecticut immediately. There's nothing like being partially stripped search at the airport when you're going home to see your dad's dead body. Talk about surreal!

The flight home was emotional. The poor woman next to me was complaining about taking care of her ailing mother then asked me who I was visiting on my trip. HA, she had no idea what I was going to say... "Well, my dad just died today from an accident. I'm going home to mourn him and take care of his body". Talk about a conversation starter!

When I get home, I see him waiting for me at the airport with his fuzzy, yellow sweater. When I get to the morgue, I see his broken body. That's the last time I hugged him and felt the enormity of his body... I saw him in the corner, almost in disbelief. He was surprised to be dead. He really thought he might get up. I heard him in my head and at that point, the room went into bright yellow, white light. I was blinded and felt heat in the back of my neck. He came home with us - me. He was with me. For the next five days while we waiting for all the state investigations to complete, he was in my head telling me what to do and where to find things.

It wasn't until my brother saw his body did he leave for the other side. He went straight to the light. He always knew that was where he was to go. He was waiting for us to release him.

My story goes on, but I'll stop there. In meditation last week, he came to me and hugged me. If there was ever a doubt that they are not with us after death, that is gone. If there was ever a doubt about God and His power, that is gone. His death saved my life. Even in death, he put his family first.

Thank you Dad for loving us that much. Thank you God for allowing us to witness his life and his death. I cry because of the experience of his life and his death. Both miracles to play a part in. I am so grateful for all of it.

I love you Dad.

Eat Real: Glorious Greens

I just finished a class on the pH balance of the body. It was great, in large part, to the group that attended. What a beautiful group of souls!

The body requires a neutral pH, just as the water and the ground around us. If it's too acidic or too alkaline, there is imbalance and disease. The same is true for the human body. Our bodies lean to the acidic side of the spectrum. Largely in part to the way we eat, think, talk and the activities or lack of activity in our lives. Processed, chemicalized, refined, enriched foods are acidic and contribute to acidic conditions. Natural, fresh, real food contribute to alkaline conditions. Stress, electronics, unhealthy relationships, etc... all contribute to acidity. Do you see how the food we eat is just one part of bringing balance to our lives? Describing the balance in terms of pH is just one way to understand harmony.

One of the best and easiest ways to tip the scales in your favor is with the introduction of green foods. This can come in the form of green vegetables, chlorella, chlorophyll, spirulina or blue green algae to name a few.

Remember this, disease, bacteria, viruses, fungus all grow in acidic conditions. Are you sick all the time? How's your attitude? This is just one way for you to examine what's working or not working in your life.
So next time you're in a funk, try a bowl of broccoli and see what happens...

Beat the Blues Broccoli:
1 lb fresh or frozen broccoli
Salt to taste
20 chocolate chips
1 tbsp. of honey 

Directions:
Steam the broccoli until fork tender and dark green. Drizzle the honey on and toss. Salt lightly and prepare on a dish.  Add a few chocolate chips to finish it off!

Be Real: Seeing my Heart

By now, you've probably noticed I talk about the vibration of love quite a bit in these posts. What is the vibration of love? It's the ability to look on situations, people and events from a place of love and light without detachment. It is literally the ability to come from your heart and not your head. Let me give you an few examples:

Someone taking your parking spot at the mall
Getting beaten and nailed to a cross for talking about love and God
Your kid getting hurt at school by a friend

I hope you see the similarities... it doesn't matter who you are or what you're doing... whether you are the president of the United States or a mom from North Carolina - if you are able to look on those around you from a true place of love and light, your vibration of 'being' is high or is rising higher and is closer to love. You are operating from your soul and the ego has been put aside.

That's the idea. That's why Jesus was here - to teach us to love ourselves and to love one another. Our souls are here to learn. We are all from Heaven and we will return when our work is done here. Here and there are an illusionl, it's all the same. Physical and nonphysical - it's all at the same time.

If you can recognize that this existence is an illusion then you can really choose to look on what is happening around you from a place of light. That is why I'm here at 3 am writing this. They have just come to me in a dream and allowed me to remember the dream and this is what They wanted me to do. I am willing to be a clear channel to deliver God's message of love - I said it before I went to bed and they rewarded me with waking me up to write this. And it is a reward and an honor. I say that because of how GOOD I feel. It's beyond words. It's beyond feeling. It's a pure place of knowing there is SO MUCH MORE to our existence than what we see or perceive at this physical level of human existence. Who's They? God, my Angels, my Guides...

Thank you for the opportunity to see You, hear You, smell You and feel You in whatever way you communicate to me. Thank you for allowing me to rise in my love vibration. Thank you for allowing all of this with grace and ease, without drama, trauma or illness and for the best and highest good.

I have total faith and trust that You are abundant in love and goodness. And that the only thing that stands in my way are my own limiting ego programs. I am willing to let those go and allow for the possibility that there is MORE and it is BETTER than this human brain could ever imagine. Lack is an illusion, bad is an illusion - it is all good in the eyes of the Creator.

Just to state my disclaimer though - I am without the need to be nailed to the cross. . . They know, I'm told. Thank you, I love you, thank you.

The only one who requires forgiveness is me of myself. God made us so perfect that we couldn't see ourselves. We had to look at each other see who we are. If we like what we see in another, that person is reflecting the light qualities of us. If we don't like what we see, well, you get the picture. Are you ready to work on what you don't like you see? Are you ready to embrace the totality of who you are and love yourself anyway? To get over yourself, out of your own way and stand up and talk about this when We present you the opportunity? I say yes, for I experienced today and everyday that all things are possible through the Lord.

As always - with grace and ease, without drama, trauma, illness or harm to anyone or anything concerned and for the best and highest good...

Be Real: Seeing my A**

I got to see my a** today. You know what I mean... It's in pretty good shape for being 38 yrs old and having 3 kids. Most of the time it serves me well. However, I saw the ugly side of it today. This is what happened...

It all started by not eating my usual breakfast... I fell into some ego despair. Starting to feel victimized, blaming others, feeling lack, feeling like I had to make something happen in order for things to turn out how my ego pictured it. My plans were not going according to plan. So, once again, I'm shown how much food does matter in our soul's journey! Once again, I'm shown how much positive thinking matters. And, I'm reminded that the only plan is God's plan... surrender is the best plan.

The thoughts and feelings may be truth, however because I was in ego mode, I responded from a place of fear instead of balance and clarity. I believe I was shown some truth in the situation, but then took off on an ego-based tantrum. It totally got blown out of proportion.

First it started with my husband (blah, blah, blah...) and filtered down to my oldest son. They both got an earful. We went to church and it continued with my youngest son (my middle son has enough sense to keep quiet and out of the way). The little one was a real piece of work. But, I should say, he just reflected in me what I was projecting. I gave him a spank in the pew at church. Not enough to hurt, but enough to show my ass. He responded appropriately by crying and yelling. Thank you for the blessing of showing me my ass once again! I had to leave with him. He continued the tirade. Got lots of looks from people... ok, starting to feel embarrassed. Then I thought - screw it! This is it, life is perfect in its imperfection. So what, my kid's screaming, I didn't eat my breakfast, we're at church 'trying' to be holy. Guess what, God was laughing His ass off at me! I had to start laughing.

Maybe I was taking myself a little too seriously. Maybe - Ha! Definitely. I told my kid - get over it. He did as soon as I did. Thank you little person for being so connected to God that you can show me the truth in myself.

Guess what? I got back on the horse. I connected back to Source. The Universal flow of love became uninterrupted! Amen! I could feel God again. Man, I was affirming my ass off - I love myself, I approve of myself, etc...

See what I mean about seeing my a**? The world saw it too and whatever they thought or didn't think, is irrelevant. I'm happy to serve the Lord today to show others and MYSELF the totality of who I am. And I accept it ALL lovingly and allow myself to love myself anyway!

Can it be that simple? Choosing to react to our feelings, our inner knowings from a place of acceptance, love and detachment or choosing to react from a place of fear. Can it be as simple as eating breakfast? Yes it can!

We can manifest light or dark. Giving into the dark is giving into old ego patterns that are blocks to moving forward in our evolution and allowing our vibration to rise. Thank you for the opportunity to see my feelings and knowings from the place of ego and fear. And thank you for the opportunity to choose to see them from a place of light. I choose to see from a place of light. I choose to be guided by my soul to see the truth of what is shown from a place of light and love. It's not about me, it's about what I can do to serve the Lord.

Attachment is ego. Seeing it for what it is and loving it anyway, that is soul - God.

All of this from skipping breakfast... Do you see a correlation between attitude, events and what you eat? I do! Some events were caused by lack of breakfast, some were just on my path this morning and how I chose to react to them was from a place of fear initially and then turned to a place of love.

Does fear motivate me? It used to. Is this bad - nope. Does it motivate me now? Yes, sometimes - and I'm still figuring it out. Sometimes what I fear is something I just need to get over myself about. Sometimes it shows me what is not on my path. Or it shows me the truth of the situation and I need to decide how I want to proceed. I can choose to manifest what I don't want, or say thank you for showing me what I don't want, now I choose the opposite. I choose what I do want.

My affirmation today is - I choose to be guided by my soul for the best and highest good. I choose to be the co-creator of my life with God for the best and highest good. Here is the prayer I'm guided to share:

"God, grant me the Serenity to accept the things I cannot change, Courage to change the things I can and Wisdom to know the difference."

Eat Real: You Are What You Eat

Remember Mom telling you, "You are what you eat"? Well it's truer than we ever thought. There is a movement of study in health called food energetics. It's based on that one statement. The studies include looking at ancestral and indigenous cultures in our human history and what they ate ceremonially before hunting, meditation and the like.

Follow me on this line of thought...

How many times have we eaten something we wish we hadn't? I can tell you from my own experience, plenty of times! How often, though was it unconscious. Just putting food in my mouth without paying attention to why or what was going in... well, first this is the body crying for nutrients and our ego being blindly led by inappropriate desires to fulfill how it WANTS to feel. We project our desires for peace, calm, love, confidence, relaxation into that scone. We actually think we will find comfort in food - so off we go. The ego wants to feel good and the best way the ego can think to do that is to stuff something in our mouth. Afterward, we sit back and wonder, "Why did I do that?". The truth is, when we feel bad, we eat bad. When we feel good, we eat good. How we eat is a direct projection of how we TRULY feel. And, how we feel is a direct projection of how we eat.

Not only are we what we eat, but we are also what we do not eat. So, if we are craving a certain food, what is it that we think that food will bring us? How can we bring those feelings into our experience without the bakery or fast food? Think about it... it's eating ALL the right foods, not just the food we put in our mouth.

Not only does the food we eat define us, but so does the TV we watch, the books we read, the things we do or don't do. This is said ALL without judgment. I want you to think about this the next time you reach for the Diet Coke or the scone. What were you just exposed to? What did you just do before that desire came about? Do you see a correlation? It's subtle, but it's there. And, yes, that heated discussion with your husband did have something to do with it. Being alone with the kids for 3 days DID have something to do with it. This does not excuse it, but it shows a correlation.

It's ALL FOOD. We feed ourselves beyond edible food everyday, every moment. God gave us everything. He made us perfect. We just need to remember we are worthy of ALL His goodness.

Choose your experience by defining how you want to feel and then allow those things into your life. The shift will take place. Know that you are worthy and loved.

Be Real: Finding God in the Dishes

I ran into a friend in carpool. She was commenting on how the dishes are never done. She wants to keep it on the 'checked off' portion of her list, but they keep coming back on the 'to do' portion. I know how she feels!

What struck me is how dishes are a direct reflection of our spiritual evolution. How we 'think' we move forward, by checking things off the list. When the real work is in the NOW of the moment. We think there is always more to do, but in reality there is only now. Our ego thinks we 'have to do this or that' in order to evolve or move forward in life. When all we have to do is just be. What a concept!

I've been reminded recently that Divine Guidance is simple, easy, quick and happens almost without thought. It's remarkable, really. When we get ourselves tied up in knots, over think, analyze, stress ourselves out - that's the ego run amok. All we have to do is show up, God will do the rest.

Affirmations and manifesting are tools our ego uses to change our vibration. I've found affirmations to be helpful in changing my direction of thought, to clear the clutter. The manifesting gets a little tricky. The reason is, I've discovered is that it is ego driven. God manifests exactly what He wants us to be, have and do. Divine Guidance, from our angels and guides, manifest for us exactly what is required on our soul's path. All we have to do is ALLOW this to happen and move out of the way. We just have to listen! My ego knows what it wants, but my soul knows what I've contracted to do in this lifetime and knows what is needed. The angels and guides will do what we ask if its in our best and highest good. And, of course, so will God.

The truth, I've come to discover, is that all I need is God. All I need is faith to carry me through. Faith is that knowing that I know exactly what I need to know right now. Knowing I have exactly what I need to have right now. Knowing I am pure love encased in a human body, with a human ego... that I am perfect in my imperfection. Perfection is an illusion.

The body is the 'vehicle', the soul is the 'driver' and the mind is the 'translator'. The mind can get trippy though - so watch out! The ego seems to reside in there. When these statements or words come up, you can be sure that the ego is trying to drive:
I think - I want - I should - Why - How

When I hear Divine guidance - it doesn't tell me what to do, I just seem to do it or understand it. Yes, I do hear it, see it, smell it or feel it. We all do. We just have to tune into it. When I hear Divine guidance, the words are simple, its easy, makes me feel good & happy - it is peaceful, gentle, nudging. It doesn't overwhelm - it's taken one step at a time. When I resist, it persists. Usually when resisting, it's because I want to know (ego), I want to understand why (ego). When I don't have to understand, I just have to do.

In Eastern Religious practices, being in the mind is a terrible place to be... Being present in the moment, being who I am, listening over speaking, slowing down... these are all ways we can live more fully in Spirit and less in ego. Oddly enough, doing dishes keeps me in the present and allows me the silence to hear God...

Be Real: Our BodIES

In my journey to learn all there is to learn about the energetic signature of the body, this is what has come up - we actually have 4 bodies. The physical, spiritual, emotional, and mental.

Low vibrational energy can manifest profoundly in any one of these 4 bodies. We get 'sick' in the physical or feel pain, depression and confusion in the mental, strong emotions in the emotional like crying, yelling, laughing and in the spiritual - that feeling of emptiness, not being whole - that's the best I can describe it from my own experience.

High vibrational energy, manifests in these 4 bodies as well. Excellent health, feeling 'good', happiness, joy, laughter, feeling the presence of God. You get the idea.

When there is an imbalance in any one of our bodies, it can be caused by allowing low vibrational energy into our vibrational existence or the sign of a deficiency. An imbalance in any one of our bodies can manifest in any of the others. The physical is just the most obvious. When I say we 'allow' this low energy into our existence, we actually may not be conscious of it because limiting subconscious programming may be the culprit. Programming many of us are not aware of because it's been with us for so many lifetimes or was ingrained in us by our experience in this lifetime. And a deficiency is nutritional - no matter what level. Sleep, laughter, peace and quiet - these are important nutritional components to our existence just as vitamins and minerals are.

I'm reminded of the subtle communication the body sends. It is always communicating a desire or need from some part of the 4 body complement. Are you achy, tired? It's telling you something. Are you grumpy, moody? Are you in angry, happy? Crampy, gassy? Pay attention to the signs, the language of your body and what it is trying to tell you. Then, just listen. Be still and listen - it will tell you what to do in order to maintain balance. You don't have to push through it, all you have to do is listen! That small, quiet voice within - the voice of intuition, Spirit - GOD, this voice loves you and guides you.

Eat Real: It's Halloween!

Everyday during October, this is what I hear: "What day is Halloween? When is Mum coming? I want to be (fill in the blank) for Halloween!"

Everyday, what the kids want to be for Halloween changes. My mother, Mum, flies here to make their costumes. Yes, you heard that right. Apparently, it's her 'thing'. So, needless to say, the kids really can be whatever they want. Imagine, getting to be anything you want with no limits!? That's how we should all look at life.

The kids design their costumes and it can change up to the day we actually buy the fabric and she sits down to sew. Pretty amazing. This is a blessing we thank God for.

The next thing I hear from people is: "How do you handle all the candy with the kids?" That has been a slightly sticky issue and I've found only one answer that makes most of us happy. They eat ALL THEY WANT when they get home! There are a few caveats, though - no gummy anything as this causes diarrhea in our house. So that goes in the favorite Uncle pile for my brother-in-law or gets recycled back into what we give out at our house. The second is - they can trade out 2 pieces of what they received for a special treat I have for them. I'll go out and buy organic, dried fruit leathers and trade them for the candy.

It's the best solution I've come up with so far. They usually end up eating about 3 pieces because the feel so sick. The rest goes into a zip lock bag for a once a week treat after school on Fridays. Dad usually helps them eat some of it - go figure.

Our dentist told us, "It's not how much candy a kid eats, it's how often they eat it that affects their health." He told us of a study where having regular sugar intake increases the risk of cavities and it's better to let them have it all at one time than to make a regular habit of eating these 'treats'. So far, so good.

The dentist's statement segways perfectly into what I've been sharing. Do a little GOOD for your body everyday and it adds up to a positive outcome. Do a little BAD for your body each day and it can accumulate to a negative outcome.

Have a wonderful holiday! Love yourself for where you are right now, because you are a Divine Creation!

Eat Real: Keep it Simple

We were born seemingly naked, yet full of Universal knowledge. We have innate intelligence. We know everything, we are just remembering it.

Eating healthy and making healthy choices doesn't have to be complex. That is the ego making it harder than it needs to be. Here are some simple steps that make a big difference...

Eat more fruit and vegetables
Drink more water
Move your body
Practice gratitude
Practice silence
Go outside

Eat more fruit and vegetables. As you eat more healthy, filling, nutrient rich food, your body will be less hungry and more satisfied. It's that simple. Constant hunger is a sign the body is lacking nutrients. When you feed it real food, it's less hungry. "An apple a day keeps the doctor away". There's more truth to that statement than anyone realizes...

Drink more water. We are mostly water. Our planet is mostly water. Water conducts electricity. Electricity is energy. We are energy. So, water gives us the capacity to move energy. As you drink more water, you are allowing your energy to flow. The more water you drink, the more energy you have.

Move your body. Exercise in any way, shape or form you can do it is better than no exercise at all. So what if it's not in a gym and you don't have the perfect clothes or sneakers. Just move! Your body will thank you. Exercise moves the lymph and the blood. It brings oxygen to the body. It detoxifies the body. It brings peace to the mind.

Practice gratitude. The more thankful we are for what we have, the less we focus on what we don't have. A friend just told me how she is writing gratitude statements for 5 things a day. This is a good practice for all of us. Thinking, writing and acting in this way creates new synapses in the brain and reprograms us to think in a higher vibration.

Silence. Turn off the TV, put away the phone, get off the computer (ha!). Sit in utter silence for 1 minute and work up to 10 or 20 minutes. You'll be amazed at the peace you will achieve over time. As a mother of 3 boys, silence is like gold in this house!

Go outside. Thank God for the outside! Again, with 3 boys, we might go crazy if we stayed in all the time. When we start to feel overwhelmed, grumpy, out of balance, we go outside. It is grounding and calming. The air we breathe, the dirt we dig - all of it is soothing. We are part of the earth. Our bodies are part of nature - not above it or below it, but part of it. As soon as we honor that, balance returns.

Above all, remember, it need not be complex! Life is a simple as we want it to be. I send you peace, love and joy! Have a wonderful weekend! Namaste.

Eat Real: Living Seasonally - Honor your Connection to the Earth (and it's food!)

I'm guessing you heard the furnace turn on in the past week. I know I heard it and felt it at mine. One of my sons has an issue with the change from warm to cold. He would rather it stay warm year round. Getting him to wear long pants and covered shoes can be a challenge. He really would live in shorts, t-shirts and crocs 365 days of the year! My guess is he'll end up living somewhere tropical...

The change in seasons is natural. Unfortunately, we forget, much like my son, that we are part of the Earth and need to allow our adaptation to the seasons. We transform, much like the caterpillar in the cocoon or the leaves dropping leaves... it's time to allow our transformation inward.

When the weather starts to get colder, we start to turn inward and contract. You may feel like you want to stay in and sleep. Expansion can be felt when the sun is out and the air is warm. A pattern of 'going in' and 'coming out' takes place. It can be confusing, especially in September and October when we experience warm days and cold days. It seems people are grumpy or 'under their rock' so to speak and then a sunny day happens along and we all crawl out for a little warmth.

What's important is honoring the seasons and our body's connection to it. We can do this through the foods we eat and the lifestyle changes we make. By accepting the changes, moving with them instead of against them, we honor our connection to God.

Start with eating seasonal, local food. Fall is a great time to focus on foods that promote the production of body fluids. Food that will lubricate the body. Because of the cooler, dryer air, our bodies need to balance it out with warmer, moister foods. By encouraging the balance, we can prevent illness and mental distress. It's really OK to stay in when you feel like it. It's the body's way of getting ready for the winter cold that is coming.

List of food for the autumn:
pineapple
apple
grapefruit
lemon
lily bulb
mushrooms
nuts or seeds
pear
lotus root
pumpkin
honey
soy milk
dairy products (if you can digest them)
squash
brussel sprouts
figs
grapes
sweet potatoes

Soup is a great way to help the transition between seasons. It's mainly fluid, full of vegetables and easy to digest. Our favorite soups are minestrone and chicken. Here's our minestrone recipe: (adapted from Food Network)

Minestrone Soup
3 cups reduced sodium vegetable or chicken broth
1 (28 oz) can of diced tomatoes
1 (15 oz) can of white cannelloni beans or navy beans - drained
1 cup chopped onion
2 chopped carrots
1 chopped celery stalk
1 chopped zucchini
2 cups chopped fresh or frozen spinach
1 clove garlic
1 tsp. dried thyme
1/2 tsp. dried sage
2 bay leaves
1/2 tsp. salt & pepper

Directions: In a slow cooker, combine all ingredients, cover and cook on high 3-4 hrs. Combine with pasta, rice or millet if desired.

Be Real: Ego & Soul (part 3) - Vocabulary

Now that we have a basic understanding of the roles of the ego and the soul, lets move onto the vocabulary of negative emotion that God has been teaching me. Once I started understanding what my perceived negative emotions were and what they meant, it showed me the programs in my ego that I was ready to release.

The soul, mind and body may seem seperate, but are united as one inside the body and work with each other. The liver, heart, speen, lungs and kidneys are the 5 major yin organs. If one of them is sick, it will breatk the harmony among all of them.* The following details lower vibrational thoughts and feelings and links them to these organs.

This is what I've come to understand...
Joy = heart
Fear = kidneys
Anger = liver/stomach/spleen
Anxiety = lungs/large intestine
Worry/pensiveness = spleen
Grief/sadness = lungs

Fear keeps us in our bodies. The ego is fear. Once the body is without pain it dies. Now stay with me here - the ego is fear and it is part of our body. The ego also wants enlightenment which is love of itself. When we fear for our safety it is an alarm for survival of the ego and body. When the ego learns that we choose our experiences, there are no victims, and blame is an illusion it can recognize that there is nothing but love left. All there is - is love, love, love. OK, that's not to say that the soul this body is carrying has not brought stuff with it from other lifetimes. It has. The ego is new and doesn't understand this. However, it can be taught to integrate and heal those experiences from those lifetimes in order to have an enjoyable experience this time.

The blessing is to recognize the fear and ask if it is valid in this lifetime. If it is not, it may be from another lifetime the soul brings with it or from being instilled as parental programming during childhood. Fear has it's own vibration. The mission is to reprogram the fear by understanding it and then allowing it to be released. Our bodies can be reprogrammed just like a computer to release the beliefs and patterns that do not serve us to carry out our soul's work. All the other 'negative feelings' we perceive come from fear. The only real emotion is LOVE because that is from God. Fear is an illusion.

Jealousy - The ego sees stuff as love. It is also a way to define yourself in a state of lack. If someone has more stuff, the ego concludes they have more love. Usually the ego wants to know what that person knows because it assumes they must know more because they have more stuff (i.e. love). Bless the situation and know that we are all on our own journey. No one is better or less. We all have our lessons to learn in this lifetime. Bless the people or person and yourself for you do not really know what their lesson is. This life is for you to learn your lesson, and them to learn theirs.

Anger directed outward is a projection of dissatisfaction with ourselves. Usually its because the ego doesn't understand. It's having a temper tantrum like a child. Anger directed inward can take the form of depression. It's a repression of our true feelings and not voicing our truth gracefully and honestly. First we repress our truth by denying our true feelings, then we repress it by not communicating it outward. The feelings get locked away and bottled up. The top pops and it comes out. We all get angry, it is a natural, healthy way to release the energy. It's when we've developed an unhealthy habit of anger directed at others, ourselves or when we understand anger as love where professional help is required. We have shut off the God flow by not thinking we are worthy enough or perpetuating a process of 'never getting what I want' in life.

Guilt is wanting approval, wanting confirmation of thoughts, to get ourselves to behave differently - basically looking for love in all the wrong places and creating chaos! The next time you feel guilty about something, do you say 'I should have'? If so, there in lies the clue - should. Change the question to 'I could have'. Now, look back on the situation and say 'did I really want to'? It's OK to say no I didn't or yes I did. Either answer is correct and now you have identified what you want to experience the next time an opportunity presents itself. You have a clearer picture of what you want or don't want! See how cool this is? Honor yourself first and then you can honor others with love.

Self-doubt shows us obstacles to overcome. We create fear about our power to achieve what it is that we want. This fear can be broken down into pieces. What is it that is really standing in our way? Make a list. If you can think it or see it, you can do it. It's not the fear that we can't achieve, it's the fear that we can! For when we realize we can, we realize our responsibility and the power of our soul. Give it to God and all you have to do is show up. Make a list of what you can physically do and give the rest to Him. Don't worry, He'll take care of it!

Worry is a tool. Worry is a way to manifest what we don't want in our lives. Abraham Hicks teachings are that worry is manifesting what we don't want to happen. But, I choose to look at it as another tool God has given us in our Emotional Guidance System. By consciously being aware of what it is I worry about, I can choose the opposite. It is a quick way to manifest what I do want by being shown exactly what I don't want. So, instead of thinking the worst will happen, I can visualize the best to happen! Just daydream it. This also breaks the cycle of ignorance. Now, we become consciously responsible for our thoughts and what manifests from them.

Anxiety is not trusting the flow of life, which means the flow of God. It is a trust and control issue. It's when worry has not been recognized for the tool it is and has gotten out of hand. Again, think of it another way... what if this is the huge stop sign in the energetic field of life standing out at you or me telling us, literally to STOP. Stop what we are doing and reevaluate what is working and what is not. In my experience, anxiety has been a time of transformation. An opportunity to change my thought patterns and habits. A time to look honestly at my life and listen to what God is telling me. He is literally screaming His head off at this point. If we pay attention to the signs that came before anxiety, we could save ourselves alot of trouble. But, like any child, we test our limits. In learning our limits, we can allow our evolution to occur naturally without forcing it or denying it.

Each of these things shows us how to love ourselves more. These feelings show the work that needs to be done to ascend to a higher love vibration- to allow the God, which is in all of us, to flow. Good feelings = God flow, Bad feelings = Block of God's Flow. We are all God. All of it, everything has a soul. He is always in us and flowing, we just have to allow Him.

These feeling are just tools - they give us insight into ourselves. They are signs that we've forgotten the God in us and need to find a way to remember by choosing the higher thought.

Once you realize that you have all the God power in YOURSELF, you can choose the higher thought, the better feeling, the love!

* The Power of Soul, by Dr. Zhi Gang Sha

Be Real: Intuition - Following the Soul Path

My goal this past month has been to develop and trust my intuition. God has given me plenty of opportunities to do so. What I've discovered is that I don't need to know the why of a situation, I only have to trust how it feels. Same with relationships, I just have to trust the feeling.

In learning to trust my intuition, the first thing I learned is what is ego and what is spirit. Intuition is communication from the soul. The soul is telling your body and mind, through feelings, pain or actual signs if something or someone is on your path or if the situation is a distraction. On the flip side, it can also tell you when something is really right for your path. In learning our intuition, it becomes easy to honor your soul and choose which direction you want to go in life.

No longer is the choice difficult. It's really simple if we allow ourselves to listen. The soul is easy, the ego is difficult. The soul trusts and the ego needs justification. The soul is here to enlighten the ego. It is the experiencer of this illusion. Our egos keep us in our bodies and our bodies are the costumes the soul wears to experience this life. The better condition we keep our bodies (costumes) in, the easier it is for the soul to carry through with it's mission. Eat real, exercise, slow down and enjoy life...

Anyway, I kept thinking, "Wow, look at all these opportunities God is giving me - I can and will do all of them. This is incredible." Then, a hesitation would pop up, or my back or hip would ache. Then confusion would set in. "Why would God present this opportunity if I wasn't suppose to do it? Why am I hurting or in conflict?" God is great and the Universe is ever expanding, so lots of wonderful opportunities will be presented on a regular basis. The trick is to listen to your body and the feelings from it with detachment. In doing this, you can understand the communication from your soul. In learning this, you get closer to understanding what it is you are here to do.

Sometimes I get the messages in my head or pictures. Sometimes, it's pain or a feeling. If I honor the very first thought or feeling, I'm following my intuition. What I learned though, living in this society is to 'push through it' - to ignore those feelings. This is a pattern of behavior that doesn't serve. In order to follow the good feeling, I have to listen to what my soul is communicating through the language of intuition. The messages ARE messages from God, my guides and the angels sent by God. They all point me in the direction of my highest good.

There is a wonderful book called Trust Your Vibes, by Sonia Choquette. In it, she talks about how to learn your intuition, develop and trust it. The steps are simple. This is a gift ALL of us possess. We just need to slow down long enough to honor it. Since it's from God - all I have to do is show up and God will do the rest.

This is my intention: "At the moment of choice, give me immediate clarity to know if it's from Soul or Self. Allow me to remain in touch with my Soul through the day and to know when it's for my highest good. Clear, complete instructions are communicated from God or the emissaries sent from God and I listen and understand them."

In these past few weeks, I've learned so much and continue to learn more everyday. I'm surrounded by beautiful souls that have shown me my path and give my experience validation. Wouldn't it be wonderful if we could all give ourselves the freedom to live life from the good feeling?