"Do not forget your place, Roberta." I've heard this over and over for the past two weeks. "Do not start to think too much of yourself." The grandness, the importance that comes with ego vanity. If someone had told me these statements a year ago, even 6 months ago I would have dismissed them with a self-esteem issue. That may have been true once, but now these words have importance as they have kept me in balance, in alignment with Source.
These words have helped me stay focused on what it is I actually can do and what I must walk away from. These words have given me power on which to stand because they remind me of my role in God's grander plan. They have given me confidence to be who I am and not pretend to be any more or any less. This is humility. Humbleness. My husband so eloquently reminded me that this is a blessing, a gift God gives us. At the moment of my earlier lessons, it felt more like failure or embarrassment, yet, it was and is a gift. Helping me to see my own truth.
Humility can be defined as:
1. The opposite of entitlement
2. True self-knowledge of the good with the bad.
"It is being able to be comfortable with who you actually are and not trying to pretend to be what you are not. It gives you pride when you have earned it by your talents and accomplishments and shame when you fall short. It accepts that you are far from perfect and keeps striving. It is honest." (link to this quote found here.)
I've been humbled for the past few months, shown my place, seen who I actually am and shown others who I am and who I am not. My kids keep me humble. Anytime I take myself too seriously, start to feel too important - they do something so utterly ridiculous, that I have to notch it down. Am I asking for it? Maybe, on some level I'm testing my boundaries, seeing how far I can reach right now. It's karma in action, saying "Hey... don't loose yourself here" or "This may not be the right fit right now." What has been illustrated to me is where I belong or, where I want to be, in relation to how comfortable I am with myself at the present moment. That's not a bad thing. If you have to fit yourself too rigidly into the rules someone else has created, it can actually hurt. Yes, it's humbling, but it's also enlightening.
If you are humbled, humiliated, or embarrassed - instead of beating yourself up or getting defensive, ask yourself, am I honestly being myself in this moment? Was this the experience I was looking for? Are you trying to be someone you are not? Are you being your truth or pretending to be something else?
Humility keeps us from hiding behind a mask. It keeps us true to who we are and where we are in life. You can change the mask, but if the inside does not match the outside, there will be disharmony and that disharmony can be communicated as humility. It's God reminding you that you don't have to be anyone other than who you are right now. You are perfect right now, in this place, as you are. This doesn't mean you stop reaching beyond yourself, it means you reach truthfully to yourself. Being truthful as to what feels right and what doesn't.
There was a woman many years ago who gave birth to a King. Did she rant and rave about her pregnancy? Did she demand satin sheets at the finest hotel? No. She gave birth in a shed on the hay with a bunch of farm animals present. This is how the King came into this world. Our first present - His first human lesson was humility. To be fully human, fully present, fully love, in whatever conditions are present.
Humility is truth. Humbleness is peace. I wish you peace. Merry Christmas!